I decided.

that...even if I have no pictures...or exact amazing stories that happen around here. I will just begin writing again. And if I am gonna write...I might as well do it here right!? So..here goes it. I am a "stay at home" mom this year. It feels weird. I am so grateful that "we" are fortunate enough for me to be at home with the kids...but then I always think about what I am supposed to be doing. I have to remind myself that "THIS" is what I am supposed to be doing. I am supposed to be holding Madden all day if he needs me to, cause it sure feels like that at times. I am supposed to be answering all of Whitty's 1,000,000 questions per day cause who else better to answer them right? I thought I would have more time. I thought that I would get more done. I find myself in a natural rhythm of wake, ready,eat, activity, eat, downtime...errands or activity, eat, play, eat...wind down, sleep...REPeAT. I feel busy. POssibly busier than I have ever been even though that has to be wrong....RIGHT?

I guess trying to buy a house doesn't help. I can't believe we could possibly close on this deal NOvember 15th...possibly sooner. It's nuts. Whityn is excited to have a bigger space. Madden doesn't know any better. We are constantly running into each other in this rental. It's funny and annoying all the same. We look forward to days where we can hide from each other if we need to.

that I FATE might exist...might! I keep feeling like I landed here for good reason people! Jordy and I have both said it out loud to each other. It's funny. We both feel like we will end up doing something here, but we are not sure what. I am hopeful to make a difference here. I am excited to make a difference here.

that FAMILY is the most important thing.

that moving across country is a BIG adventure!

that I would entertain the possibility of 3 children. Wha?

that I will start MY OWN book club!

that I am a pretty good mom that enjoys being at home, but knows that I am called to do something in this community.

that I shouldn't take myself too serious!