How on earth am I supposed to go back to work on Friday FULL time? I am nervous...scared...excited...confused....depressed....and just too plain tired to comprehend all the emotions I feel. Last night...around 2am....I was up...and just buried my head in my pillow and boo-hooed....i woke jordy...and he wrapped his arms around me until i woke up again to Whit crying out for me....I gladly went to get him and brought him to bed with me and just nursed and snuggled him.
*I read in a book right after I had Whit that if you wake up in the night with your baby...don't look at it like you are missing out on sleep...look at it like you get to spend time with your baby...I have taken that advice to heart...and I gladly get up in the night and wee hours of the morning to hold, nurse, snuggle, comfort, love....and rock my baby because there are so many women who would love to be doing what I am getting to do. I feel so fortunate to have had this time off with Whityn for his first 3 months on earth. I am so blessed.